Hi. Many people think that when they sadness or depression they can handle it by them self. But when in certain situations the possibilities are low and slow , they get affected and feel hard to overcome their problems.. when you either you to a psychologist or psychiatrist you will not be a case and there is nothing wrong in going and getting counselling or therapy. Very few are cases with different disorders. Also you cannot judge yourself to have clinical depression until a trained therapist tells u so. Having suicidal thoughts and negativities are not good. Hence get counselling . You are facing some sort of discomfort in life which makes u feel like this. Try correcting ur self or you can seek for help.