Hello madam, what ever you are writing hear seems to be problematic,but don't fall to any conclusion. Before the problem gets worse please meet a consultant. And the question regarding diagnosis ,knowing it will make the condition worse than soothing it.
Next Steps
meet a psychiatrist or psychologist
Health Tips
keep Ur self occupied, try not to stay alone, share Ur feelings with family members, don't self medicate ( avoid pain killers ). try to do exersice minimally, avoid sleeping in day time.