Good day my Friend, I can understand your concern.
All the mentioned symptoms are early sign of depression. Take a counselling help to first assess yourself. It's important to figure out the root cause behind such thoughts and disturbance.
Be positive. You will be alright soon.
Feel free to reach me online for further assistance.
Health Tips
Be aware, every individual is unique due to their upbringing, culture, society, lifestyle, environment, food habits, education, family values etc. So there is no one fit solutions for all. General advices, Google search, youtube videos won't give better results in handling individual's emotional disturbance. You need a have human touch to ventilate your feeling and emotions to identify the root cause of your problems . Then suitable solutions and therapies plan can be identified jointly.