Your symptoms may be related to depression with anxiety, especially since you are having sadness, crying spells, hopelessness, loss of interest, low confidence, loneliness, appetite loss, irritability, and overthinking for the last 2 months. Alcohol dependence and stopping alcohol can also worsen mood and anxiety symptoms. Bipolar disorder usually includes episodes of unusually high mood, excessive energy, decreased need for sleep, overconfidence, overspending, very fast talking, or risky behavior. From what you described, it sounds more like depression/anxiety, but proper evaluation by a psychiatrist is important before confirming anything. The good thing is that these conditions are treatable, and many people improve significantly with proper treatment, counseling, sleep correction, exercise, avoiding alcohol, and medicines if needed. Please do not restart alcohol to feel temporary relief because it usually worsens symptoms later. Seek psychiatric consultation early If you ever get thoughts of self-harm or suicide, seek immediate help from family, nearby hospital, or emergency services. For consultation, u can directly msg on nine nine three one zero four five zero zero eight.

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I can understand you are going through a tough time but the good thing is that you are recognising your problem and willing for treatment, yes as you mentioned that your symptoms were worse during the times when you took alcohol. Apparently you are having prominent depressive symptoms but your picture is complicated by alcohol too, so before arriving at any conclusion, a proper assessment is definitely required.

It's seems to be more towards depressive symptoms but need evaluation