Hello Friend, Good that you are reaching out for help. Can understand your stress level and pain. However, it's not the end of everything in life. You need guidance to overcome the suitation as at this point as you are not in right frame of mind to take decision . So don't decide anything negative.
Next Steps
Immediately go for a counseling near by your place or you can consult me online
Health Tips
Keep yourself engaged with someone like family or friends. Try to avoid being alone. Try yoga and meditation to get some relaxation.