So basically about the thoughts, I never fantasie about it, never indulge into the thoughts, but they feel real, like an urge. Can anyone relate? (The urge can happen anywhere, doesn't matter if it is near danger objects or not. When for example my dad starts arguing with me the thoughts appear, does that mean I am actually suicidal? "Background" thoughts and thinking about this topic even when I am fine. Another thing, when I am fine I get like butterflies in the stomach. Is this post-anxiety