Hi. It must be difficult for you to manage all these emotions and keep up with bad dreams as well. When we feel something wrong with our stomach/any body part, we get it tested to be on a safer side. Similarly, one needs to take care of their mental wellbeing. It's always better to pick up the phone and look for a psychologist. I would recommend you to go see one as he or she would be able to help you and let you understand your thoughts and feelings.