Hello, The problem narrated by you has at least two aspects to it- 1. First is a troubled marriage, which by itself can lead to a significant distress and difficulties. 2. Second is a set of mental health disturbance related symptoms. Sadness of mood, hopelessness, impairment in sleep, loneliness, negative feelings etc. Both of these seem to be intricately linked. Hence I would suggest that you please seek help from a psychiatrist near you. He/she can do a comprehensive assessment of your mental health, as well as marriage. Also it would first of all give you a outlet/channel to share your thoughts and feelings. Thereafter a plan of management can be drawn to help you. You would require a combination of medication and psychological intervention to help your current condition. Also a marital therapy may be planned to help in the marital disturbance. Howsoever all of this requires a careful planning and a stepwise approach. Hence please seek a consultation with a psychiatrist to help you deal with this current situation. Do not lose hope, as help will be available if you seek it. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.