Please start to fly. Start to travel. Start to move on.....
I understand, that's what the difficulty you have. If that's going to be a problem which you can solve on your own, then why you suppose to raise this question in this forum.
I understand friend, yes its anxiety, depression, obsession and what not..
All together, you have a distress which can be understood and helped by a trained psychiatrist.
Next Steps
please seek help