Please don't be disheartened..I can sense your anguish and pain and realise it's a difficult time and phase.You need support at this time to help you get another perspective.Life is a series of experiences and some lessons are harsh but with each lesson we grow and become stronger.pls talk to a trusted friend and confidant or a professional and seek the help and support.Tell yourself that you can stand it.What would you tell a friend who was going through the same thing.Im sure you would tell her that this too shall pass and have faith that good things are round the corner .