Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here.  Anger, irritation, frustration etc are expression or outburst of stress in your mind which in turn causing depression. As body and mind are interlinked even physical conditions like excess heat, menstrual issues, acidity, lifestyle, dietary can also influence such behavior. Don't be decisive and try and hurtful actions. Instead ask for help. I can understand your suitation of holding such emotional disturbance and it's effect into your day-to-day life. Having experienced such behavior and symptoms affecting your normal life and relationships, why don't you take the next logical step to address it by taking a professional help. You need a holistic analysis of both physical and mental condition to identify and analyze the reason behind the anxiety and depression.

Hi It must be an awful situation for you. Your description of problem is indicative of severe depression I wonder why haven't you sought treatment yet but it's never too late. Now take help from mental health professional Talk about and learn to manage and overcome these symptoms Consult with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling through practo All the best More power to you

first assess urself for depresion as more details needed for depresion DIAGNOIS consult me or psychitrist online or offline

I suggest you to consult a psychologist immediately either online or offline.