I can understand your responsibilities towards your family and how much you care for them. I feel you have started to believe that these symptoms have become a permanent part of your personality but from experience and research based evidence I can say that just like any normal physical illness this can be treated.  These are purely symptoms of the disorder you have been diagnosed with. I would suggest along with medicines take regular sessions with a Clinical Psychologist because a Psychologist will help in working on the negative thoughts that are most disturbing right now You can also do an online consult with any Clinical Psychologist on this platform as well.