Dear client Are u asking for  professional  help or asking a rhetorical question? It seems you are well aware of your emotions.You are also aware of repercussions of your actions  .All we have to do is keep tab on when and how your emotions trigger your  actions. 

I appreciate that you have found it is better to seek a professional help.. Consult a psychologist.

Hello practo user I can understand the difficult situation that you are currently going through . It is indicative that you are undergoing some stress in your life which is aggravating your symptoms . You can try and practice meditation on regular basis which will help you calm down and clear your thoughts . Try and spend some quality time with your close family members and friends and engage in conversations which are common in nature . Go for regular exercises which will help release the frustration . It is advisable that you seek help from a clinical psychologist for proper diagnosis and treatment for your issues . You can also get in touch with me through the practo app for any further help or guidance

It seems that you are a victim of poor impulse control. Poor impulse control can be a long-standing problem in conditions such as Impulse control disorder or Personality Disorder. It can also present as a new onset symptom in conditions such as Depression or other Psychiatric disorders. There are solutions available for this. First of all, an assessment of the underlying cause has to be made.