Psychosis. Place where i'm working at?

Hi Doctor, I've been using psychotic substances for about 5 years from now and a lot has changed since then, I'm not sure, if I've overdone that and felt a way of living(comfort zone) and silos and social isolation. Mood swings are common from the childhood. The only challenge I find sometimes difficult, is the self expression, low confidence knowingly I can do best and and I do best. My life has been a roller coaster and have seen a lot of ups and down but that doesn't let my down for now when I'm writing, but I experience it subconsciously. Last but not the least, I can't make quick decision and there's a lot of confusion in making decision. Please let me know, if I need any assistance or things are fine, is it just a hot day and bad place where I'm working at? Need advice. Thanks