Hi there,
It is sad that you have under gone such trauma in your child hood.
But this is life.We all go through various kind of stress ful events and trauma. But still we move on with support and help from friends, family and mental health professionals when ever needed.
With out details of the history and MSE, the diagnosis can not made and treatment should be targeted on the diagnosis.
Next Steps
Do take the help of a mental health professional.
Be positive in your thoughts about present and future.