Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Any long term relationship needs to have enough given & take, trust and open communication. If you miss any of this, you will be doing only a patch work on every occasion.
If you are serious about relationships, just do an analysis of what kind of suitation you will face post marriage. Will you be able to handle and carry on with such relationships?.
Would recommend you to take a guidance of counseling support to explore the pros and cons of your options to decide on next steps.
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