Hello First you consult about your problem to any Psychologist of your near by area.

Dear client. The feeling of negativity and a gloomy perspective along with loss of confidence and persistent crying spells indicate a possible diagnosis of a major depressive illness.and the worst part is negative view about future. I suggest you consult a Psychiatrist immediately without any delay or hesitation. You might require intensive pharmacotherapy or psychotherapy or both depending on clinical picture. Humble advice please don't delay.

Consult a psychotherapist

Hello Please visit counsellor. Thanks