I do not how to describe this issue but I am quite depressed these days and always remain stressed there is tough time going on in my life and it is a kind of do and die situation. I am always frustrated or irritated by other people specially person who lives with and it is affecting my relationship a lot with him as he is my boyfriend. I expect from him to understand that I am not angry with but irritated by myself but how don't what has changed inside out that now I am unable to express at all anything to anyone what is actually going on inside me. Most of the times I spend time with fake arguments people are involved who made me feel bad about myself or have done something wrong to me or showing people that how successful I have become . In reality it is very hard for to even take a water bottle from fridge or even turning on the fan it feels like I just want to stay laying down in bed which my boyfriend never understands and keeps me blaming that I'm lazy but that ain't true.