Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation and interests to consider alternatives. You must know that medicine are just one part of any psychic treatments and they help only in suppressing emotion and sometimes causes side effects due to various reasons including body condition. If you are willing and committed to overcome this problem permanently, then you need to start some suitable psychotherapy solutions covering: few lifestyle changes, daily routines, excersise, self behavioral therapies, dietary along with counseling support. If interested, feel free to reach out to me directly or online to assess and understand suitable alternatives for you. Be positive. You will be alright soon.