Hello
As mentioned above , you are troubled by the complications in the relationship which is always going to be like it because both of you have your own families as well. This relationship does not have a future too and is going to affect your life in future as well. Try to move on and minimize your interaction with him and spend time with your family. For better management of the issues consult a clinical psychologist through online consultation or meet in person.
Next Steps
consult a clinical psychologist
Health Tips
meditate, spend time with family, engage in activities you like