It looks like that your are confused and fear taking up the new responsibiliies also..
Yes, in our society, there are few expectations, which a bahu is expected to fulfil..
And the transition into a different Religion, it involves a lot more effort..
You need to have a better clarity take a decision about your future life..
Next Steps
I suggest you to consult a psychological Counselor /Therapist.
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