Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Appreciate you for taking the courage to express your problem in this forum to look for a solution. With the same courage, take the next logical step to connect with a psychology expert directly or online to share more details about your feelings, emotions and concerns . I am sure you will be able find suitable solution to overcome this with little bit of efforts.
I am sure you are not enjoying your current state of mind and life. Be positive. Consult without hesitate.
Next Steps
Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo for further detailed evaluation and suitable recommendation. You will be alright soon.