I am having panic attacks since about 10 yrs now. Sometimes they are frequent. I had a rough past ( childhood). ( with very good parents- they werent the issue) . My best friend passed away when i was 10. Didn't have friends till i was 15. Had 2 best friends who broke my trust a lot of times and broke me further. Got 2 new bestfriends when i was in college (17 yrs old) and i dont wanna loose them. I have migraine attacks sometimes since the last 2-3 yrs and expect my best friends to understand. They dont. Sometime i get angry on small things too. They are irritated by that. But sometimes i have genuine reasons for that. I listen to their side and try to change my behaviour but they never listen to me and hence we get in a fight, i dont wanna loose them too. I have had a lot of suicidal thoughts but thinking about my parents stops me from giving up. I need help from a psychiatrist.