I understand your situation. You seem to be suffering from obsessive symptoms. More clarity is needed regarding your problem to decide on the severity of your condition. However it is easily manageable with appropriate treatment, so that dysfunction due to the same can be reduced and your quality of life will improve. Some counselling sessions and if needed medical help might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is available.

Diagnosis is not always required. Our thoughts are like babies. What you feed them they will like it as they have no point of view. So if you are feeding them a negative thought it will keep strengthening the same. Hence it is required to look what are you feeding your thoughts as?