Hi.... You can think about joining a job or something post delivery. There are lots of work from home opportunities available right now. You are going through a typical mid-life crisis where you are evaluating your past, present, and future and finding it to be dull everywhere. You already have an insight that something is not right within you and it's not completely your husbands behaviour that is causing you to feel this way. Working along in a therapeutic setting will work best in your case.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist.
CBT along with Interpersonal Guidance and Counselling is required.
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Mr. Gunjan Maithil
Senior Psychologist
Cell: nine six seven one three zero three one three four
Website: https://gunjanmaithil.wixsite.com/therapy
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