Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. It quite common, when you focus  one thing in life seriously, we tend to ignore other side, especially both mental and physical health. . This causes stress and depression.. Appreciate you for acknowledging the gap and willing to address such emotional imbalance. First you need to assess your current condition both physically and mentally. That should help you to address your problems holistically and long term. Take a professional counselling support to help you in such scenario.