Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Managing and balancing a relationship is tough job and no one is perfect in it.. It need certain degree of give and take, trust and open communications to maintain the balance. Problem could be from both side, but we tend to blame each other.. Take help if you are not able to handle the situation alone. Sometime assumption misguide you and create depression.
You may need a guidance of counseling support to analyses in a better way and guide your thoughts positively .
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