So, through out my entire life I have been anxiety free, depression free, outgoing, energetic, beyond happy, excited for the smallest activities, engaged in sports, center of attention, and very in sync with who I was as a person, and loved life. I was consistently smoking marijuana and taking psychedelics and this lead to the happiest most profound experiences. Then my last trip I discovered I like men and it completely changed my brain chemistry leaving me with depression, anxiety.