Really sorry for the turmoil you are undergoing. Even though actual life circumstances cannot be changed, the way you look at it and cope with it can be changed. This can be achieved through combination of medicines and psychotherapy. But before that, you need to get complete evaluation done to know the actual symptoms and to decide the requirement and mode of treatment.
Next Steps
Kindly visit nearby psychiatrist and take help. you may also consult online
Health Tips
If you are having suicidal ideations, consult Psychiatrist immediately