Hi. You have found many issues in you. Pls don't worry . All are there to help you. We can sort out ur issues. Don't feel so low. If u r not confident , try doing one thing or task at a time. Concentrate more on one thing. Whatever may be your confidential problems. Do share it with a counsellor. You can get motivational therapy for ur frustrations and suicidal thoughts. Do get online counselling.
Next Steps
visit a counsellor. they are very friendly and you can trust talking to them.