Hi. After reading Ur issues and I can understand that not only u but many girls do suffer the same problem. You have to understand that love is love where ever u are. U must first develop urself and come up in life. Think wat all have you achieved till now. Study well and get a good career life. Try all ways to earn a better job. Regenerate Ur thoughts and energy and self confidence. Accept Ur partner words and respect him. Dont be afraid that u will lose him or u won't get friends. U must be able to move with society and make new friends. meet a psychologist and get help.