Hi. You should come out of your negative attitudes. You can change and develop your social skills. Don't worry. If u are  ready to get counselling we can solve your frustrations and negative thinking. You can get online or phone counselling. You can call us for talking about other issues and ur problems. Don't feel that nobody is talking to you. You can change yourself to think positively.

What you might be experiencing is social anxiety which is hampering your professional life. Kindly consult a Clinical Psychologist who will use therapy to handle social anxiety.

Hi, google search cant help you as much as a professional can. you have social anxiety and phobia. fear of being embarrased, judged by people, negative irrational thoughts which takes you in a loop of negativity and self doubt. please consult with me or any psychologist for professional help through counseling and therapy. learn techniques to improve your self worth also find out whats causing it. all the best