Hi.... I believe you are experiencing issues from a young age and whenever you are able to cope better with your issues you perform well and whenever you are unable to deal with them you experience a failure. Lot of young adults suffer from similar issues and seek professional help to overcome such predicaments in their lives. I hope there must be some sort of counselling facility available at your college campus. If it is there, do give it a try and take minimum 4-6 months of weekly counselling sessions. If there is no such facility available for your access than you can seek professional help online or offline with any good Psychologists that you believe you will be able to open up freely. Remember, Life/Career is not a 100 meter sprint. It is a Marathon. It doesn't matter who is running ahead in the beginning. What matters is that you are running it at your own pace.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist.
Interpersonal Guidance and Career Counselling is required.
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Mr. Gunjan Maithil
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