your increasing submissive behaviors and desire to be treated as an object may be connected to unresolved feelings of rejection and low self-worth, especially related to the painful experiences you faced with your crushes over the past 10 years. I strongly encourage you to seek support from a qualified psychodynamic therapist, who can help you explore the unconscious patterns driving these behaviors, understand their connection to your past experiences, and develop healthier ways of relating to yourself and others. It’s also important to consult a psychiatrist, especially if these actions are harming you or interfering with your life. You don’t have to face this alone, and compassionate care can help you find balance and healing.

What you describe relates to a submissive sexual preference (fetish) where you find satisfaction in being dominated. Such interests can exist in some people and are not necessarily abnormal if they are consensual, safe, and not interfering with daily life. However, when it starts to feel uncontrollable, linked with past rejections, or causes emotional distress, it may point toward underlying psychological concerns that need attention.

Hi.. this is a type of sexual perversion. Consult online for treatment