Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. All problems has a solution. It's about seeking a help at right time when all your options are exhausted.
Online counseling helps in your kind of scenario where you can't speak about your problems with family or friends.
Don't hesitate to consult a Psychologist online.
Next Steps
Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo app chat for further detailed evaluation and recommendation that you can follow practically to overcome this depression. Be positive. You will be alright soon.