Hello dear, The symptoms that you have described here are mostly suggestive of an emotionally charged and disturbed mental health. Howsoever to determine the best possible manner to help you, a detailed and comprehensive assessment is warranted. A detailed medical, psychological, neurological, relational and social assessment can throw more light on this situation and remedial techniques. Hence I would like to suggest that you please seek a consultation with a psychiatrist near you for assessment and treatment. Whether or not mediation are required or a psychotherapy alone will suffice can only be commended after a detailed assessment. However please be well assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and treatment. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.