Hello Dear I am so sorry to hear what you have been going through. 2 years is a long time to be going through any sadness. Have you got yourself evaluated because you have used the term DEPRESSION I can understand that it is very difficult to open up to someone about what you are going through. These days there are many options, to communicate - you can write an email, or talk on the phone or even do video calls . I understand that it takes a lot of courage to talk to a stranger. Having said that , A psychological counsellor- will maintain almost confidentiality and will help you open up. It may not be a bad idea to speak to a trusted person to start off with and then to a counsellor.