Hello, if u think so ten please remember that this illness called depression makes u believe you can't good again in life again... But that is so not true.... Your best is yet to come... And there is a way out of this feeling state.
Next Steps
Please consider seeing a psychiatrist you have trust on. You will be feeling better with correct treatment and advise in coming few days.
Health Tips
Hope this helps you but feel free to raise any further queries. Please take care.. And believe me you meant to serve greater purpose then suffer from the illness