You should confide about your issue to a close friend or a relative( maybe your sibling or a cousin). Make a journal to record your thoughts and feelings. Find things to do that make you feel good about yourself( dance, yoga, reading etc.). Preferably join a class so that you keep yourself engaged. Meet with a counselor or a therapist to deal with your unresolved feelings when you feel you are ready to do so. These days you can also use online or phone consultation if you are uncomfortable meeting someone face to face. A professional would be able to guide you further based on a detailed understanding of your background.

If you have any other questions, please free to contact me. Good luck!