Hi
I appreciate that you reached out with your concern.
Whatever you have written I can make out you are feeling hopeless, helpless and worthless.
As you are fortunate to have friends n parents talk to them your feelings, engage yourself in outdoors, hobbies, selfcare, sleep well, eat healthy food atleast 3 times
Next Steps
Still unable to improve your condition you can have session with Clinical psychology for better understanding of your concern and the remedy
Health Tips
Refrain from substance abuse