Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation. When you are distrubed emotional due to though suitations in life, don't be decisive of your life. Better seek help as in such suitations you can't decide right things. Kindly consult a counseling Psychologist and openly discuss all your problem, feelings emotions to ventilate yourself. This excersise will give you clarity on what to do, what to change, whom to ask help etc.. Don't hesitate to consult immediately. Feel free to reach out to me online for further assistance. Be positive. You will be alright soon.

Hello Dear Repeated failure could be a result of low mood and hence it is indicative that you might be having some depressive symptoms .Depression is a treatable condition with combination therapy: Medication and psychotherapy session. Try consulting a clinical psychologist for further diagnosis and counseling session .

Seek a professional support immediately. You can overcome this by some valuable suggestions and clarity by a professional. Consult a psychologist.