Well the symptoms you have described like crying spells, sleep disturbances, loss of pleasure, weight problems and suicidal thoughts all clearly state that you are suffering from clinical depression. It needs immediate intervention.
Next Steps
kindly consult a psychiatrist immediately. Check your
thyroid and Haemoglobin levels also. They can worsen these symptoms.
Health Tips
Don't worry. The symptoms can be improved by proper treatment. Kindly maintain a healthy diet and proper sleep pattern. Kindly do yoga and jogging regularly. All the best. Be relaxed stay healthy.