Well all this is your mental state which is temporary and can be treated and cured.
Next Steps
You need a combination of Homoeopathy and Bach Flower remedies and counselling which I can provide.
Health Tips
You can write down 10 things you are grateful for and 10 positive statements, every day, initially it might be difficult,but surely you will be able to do it. Physical exercise for an hour daily is highly beneficial too.