Hi Sir
Thanks for seeking help here.
After evaluation of current history it suggests you may have OCD with depression. How ever we need a detail evaluation and proper management plans.
I believe strongly you have enough courage now and that why you came forward to discuss your issues. Definitely we will help you in this.
Next Steps
I will suggest you that definitely you need a early consultation with Psychiatrist. In Practo we can help you out of this also. Suggest you with a delay come for immediate consultation so that the anxiety and guilty feeling will be resolved earliest.
Happy to Help You.
Regards
Dr. Jitendriya
From Practo