Hi, you can consult a psychologist and talk about what you feel and what is in your mind. Do not worry you can talk about your concerns with a psychologist and counseling sessions will help you.

You have already taken the first step by reaching out. When we get too emotional either when we are too happy or on the other end be very sad ,both situations lead to clouding of our thinking and we are not able to think clearly. Identify the reasons which are interfering your decision making ,see a Psychologist for the same , working such situations along with a professional's helps.

Appreciate your willingness to seek a professional support.. Yes, you can contact me for further discussion and understanding by using the link given below :- https://prac.to/hema-sampath-psychologist-dir

You need to understand your Priorities before taking any decision. You can take help via counseling to create better awareness of yourself.