You are in an emergency situation. Immediately visit a psychiatrist. Kolkata has many good ones. Disclose your intentions about self harm to your parents at least .  Everything that you feel presently may be due to the state of mind you are in. Depression may make you think all negatives and oversee the positives. You will yourself feel the difference  after being on treatment for  some days .

Consult nearest psychiatrist as you require detalied counseling session and you may require medications such as SSRI or tricyclic antidepressants... With that fallow relaxation techniques like yoga, meditation,avoid alcohol, smoking, coffee, tea...have good sleep and develop healthy food habits..good luck.

Dear friend, FAIL is first attempt in learning. Learn from your failures. NO is next opportunity. See life as an opportunity to change it your way. Every problem comes with a solution. Look at the open door than to stand behind the closed doors. You are intelligent and you have the potential to come out of all your problems. Just tap your inner potential. Follow balanced diet, increase intake of water, follow relaxation techniques. Inside yourself always remember"you are relaxed". Any help needed feel free to contact Visit www.mastermindfoundation.com Wishes

Hi, you are 24 years old, working in an IT based company. Start from here, try to visualise your future as bright and wonderful as you can! When you drive a car, do you look back and drive or look in front! It seems to you right now as if you should end it all because you are focusing only on all the things that are wrong in your life. Imagine putting all your problems in a colourful balloon of your choice and let go of it. Stop looking at life through a narrow, one sided perception. Life can be as beautiful as you make it out to be. It does not have to end because of a few wrong choices made. Having said the above, I would like to add: Please visit a good Psychiatrist as soon as possible. Once you feel better , you can deal with anything. You will require counseling and/ or medication for a short time. Take this opportunity to deal with your life in a powerful way and come our if it strong and beautiful! All the best!