Hi, it seems like you have been struggling with symptoms of anxiety for a long time. I would encourage you to meet a psychiatrist and a clinical psychologist at the earliest to discuss a treatment plan. It is also important to understand any significant life events in your history, as well as the severity of your symptoms at present. You will definitely need psychotherapy to deal with the fears you have mentioned as well as the difficulty in communicating with others.
Next Steps
Meet a psychiatrist and clinical psychologist