Hello, it must be difficult for you with what you are experiencing but it is good that you are seeking help. If the medicines you have been prescribed are not helping, maybe you can seek an opinion online. It would help if you are with your family during this time if possible. Ideas of self harm must be expressed with someone who you think can understand.
Next Steps
Reach out to a Psychiatrist at the earliest .
Health Tips
Maintain healthy lifestyle.
Eat healthy and try to get adequate sleep.
Drink 2-3 liters water per day.
Relaxation breathing exercise