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Hi, I can see how your confidence has been affected negatively ever since the passing of your father. I'm sorry for the loss and it's not easy to cope with such a thing. It's like you've lost someone who was an important part of your personal identity and now you don't know who you are without that. That's a very human thing. When something that important leaves it can bring a huge void and confusion. It's understandable that being with a girl with whom you felt even more non-existent, being erased is a painful and demeaning experience. With what you went through it's understandable that your self esteem and confidence has distorted. But you are here still seeking a way out. That shows all is not lost. This part of you believes in a new way. With the right therapist it's possible to feel empowered again.

It seems to be post traumatic psychological changes leading to depression and anxiety. It needs to be treated asap otherwise it may get complicated. It can be well treated with counseling sessions and homeopathic medicine effectively and without any side effects. It needs to be treated in a holistic approach for complete recovery. You need an expert psychologist who is a good homeopathic physician.

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Hi, I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. It sounds like you've endured a lot of pain and challenges over the past few years, from loss and online hate to feelings of inadequacy and confusion about your direction in life. It's important to remember that you're not alone, and reaching out for support can make a significant difference. Consider talking to a mental health professional, such as a counselor or therapist, who can help you process these feelings, develop coping strategies, and work towards finding clarity and purpose. Building a sense of independence, career direction, and self-acceptance takes time, but small steps like setting achievable goals, practicing self-compassion, and focusing on your strengths—like your ability to see coding differently now—can help you regain confidence. Remember, comparing yourself to others on social media is often misleading; everyone’s journey is unique, and your worth isn’t determined by others’ standards. Seek support, take things one step at a time, and believe that with time and effort, you can find stability, purpose, and happiness.

I’m really sorry you’ve been carrying so much for so long. Losing a parent, facing online hate, and feeling directionless can shake anyone deeply—this doesn’t make you weak. You haven’t failed; you were surviving. You can rebuild—one small step at a time. Start with getting emotional support from a mental-health professional, and focus on one skill or routine instead of comparing yourself to others. Social media shows highlights, not reality. You’re not late, broken, or alone. You’re 25—and this can still be a new beginning. Please reach out for help; you deserve support and clarity.

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Hi, I understand, what you’re describing reflects the impact of prolonged grief, repeated identity attacks, and sustained emotional overload, not a personal failure. Losing your father, being subjected to online hate and false accusations, and then feeling directionless for years would deeply unsettle anyone’s sense of self. Feeling suicidal “easily” is a signal of exhaustion and overwhelm, not weakness or lack of worth. Depression can significantly impair learning, confidence, and motivation. The time you feel was “wasted” was, in reality, time spent surviving. Noticing now that coding isn’t as difficult as you once believed suggests that your ability was never the issue, the emotional burden was. Constant comparison, particularly through social media, intensifies shame and distorts perspective; timelines are never equal when life circumstances are not equal. At this stage, you don’t need to have everything figured out. What’s needed is stabilization, support, and one realistic next step—not all the answers at once. Purpose often emerges after safety, structure, and small, consistent wins are re-established. You are overwhelmed and under-supported. With appropriate help and a step-by-step approach, catching up is possible. Reaching out in this way is already a meaningful and courageous first step.

What you are describing is not weakness — it is the result of prolonged emotional trauma. You have faced multiple losses and attacks at the same time: The loss of your father (a major emotional anchor) Online hate and identity attack, which deeply damages self-worth False accusations, which create chronic fear and helplessness Long periods of depression, isolation, and comparison When these happen together, the mind enters survival mode. In survival mode: Direction disappears Motivation collapses Confidence shrinks The future feels permanently blocked This is a psychological injury, not a personal failure.

Consultation with me is advised

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Thank you for sharing this. It sounds incredibly overwhelming, and I want to acknowledge how much you have been carrying for a long time. The loss of your father, online hate, relationship stress, and career confusion can deeply impact self worth and hope. Feeling suicidal is a serious sign that you deserve immediate support, not judgment. What you are experiencing is not weakness. Depression, grief, and prolonged stress can distort how we see ourselves and our future. At 25, it is not too late to build skills, direction, or meaningful connections. Comparison on social media often worsens these feelings and is not a true reflection of real life progress. I strongly recommend speaking to a mental health professional as soon as possible for regular therapy and, if needed, psychiatric support. If at any point you feel unsafe or at risk of harming yourself, please seek immediate help. In India, you can contact AASRA or Kiran. You are not alone, and help is available. With the right support, clarity and stability can be rebuilt step by step.

Thank you for sharing this , it sounds like you’ve been carrying a lot for a long time. Losing your father, facing online hate, feeling stuck with direction and comparison can deeply affect confidence and motivation, and it makes sense that you feel overwhelmed and lost right now. You’re not weak or beyond help. what you’re describing often comes from prolonged grief, stress, and feeling unsupported. These are things that can be worked through with the right support and clarity. If you’re currently feeling unsafe or having thoughts of harming yourself, please reach out to immediate support or a trusted person near you. You deserve help and safety.

Thank you for trusting me with something this painful. I want to acknowledge how much you’ve been carrying for a long time—grief after losing your father, online hate, feeling falsely accused, isolation, and the pressure of comparing yourself to others. Anyone going through this much loss and stress would feel overwhelmed and exhausted. When you say you feel suicidal easily, that tells me how intense and heavy this pain has been—not that you are weak or broken. What you’re describing sounds like a system that has been under prolonged emotional threat, trying to survive without enough support. Feeling behind in life, struggling with direction, and losing confidence in your abilities often happen alongside depression and trauma. These experiences can distort how we see ourselves and our future. The fact that you’ve begun to notice that learning and growth are still possible (like with coding) tells me there is capacity here—even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. You don’t have to figure out your entire life at once. In therapy, we can focus first on helping you feel safer, more grounded, and less alone with these thoughts—before moving into career direction, identity, and rebuilding confidence at a pace that feels manageable.

Please book an urgent counselling session so we can assess your safety and support you closely If suicidal thoughts feel intense or uncontrollable, seek immediate help: Contact a trusted family member or friend today Reach out to a mental health helpline (numbers below) Maintain basic structure: regular meals, sleep timing, and minimal daily routine Avoid isolation;being alone for long periods can intensify distress

I’m really glad you spoke this out. What you’ve been through losing your father, being attacked online, false accusations, isolation, pressure at home, feeling behind in life those are huge emotional injuries. Anyone carrying that for years would feel crushed, confused, and hopeless at times. Feeling suicidal in that context is not weakness. It’s your mind saying: this is too much to hold alone. Right now, the most important thing is your safety. Your brain has been living under threat for years grief, shame, rejection, comparison, fear about the future. When that piles up, the mind turns brutal on itself: I wasted time. I’m behind. I’m nothing. I’ll never catch up. Those thoughts feel true, but they are symptoms of trauma and depression not objective facts. You didn’t waste those years. You were surviving. Being jobless, comparing yourself on social media, lacking close friends those things poison confidence even in healthy people. Add grief and harassment, and it can destroy self-belief.

I’m really sorry you’ve been carrying so much pain for so long. Losing your father, facing hate, and false accusations can break anyone’s sense of self. Your feelings don’t mean you’re weak; they show you’ve been overwhelmed, not incapable. Many people start late in skills and careers and still build meaningful lives. The fact that you’re learning coding now shows resilience, not failure. Comparison lies to us—your timeline is allowed to be different. Stress and depression can distort thinking, making the future look hopeless.