Hi there. It seems like you are exhausted and fatigued from trying to juggle so many things. Trying to run the house, look after your child, maintaining relationships etc. It seems like it's time to press the pause button so you can get some air to breathe.
When you are constantly on a panic mode, it's hard to think clearly or even feel good about anything. The whole cycle impacts your physical and mental health.
Just slow down and re examine what you want and how you can re prioritize things and plan your day in a way that you can get some time for self care.
If you are not able to express yourself the way you want, you may end up projecting all that negative energy to your son. This can be quite harmful for both of you. Do seek help urgently.
Next Steps
I do work with mothers and would be available to support you. I would recommend you start counselling or therapy to regain your balance. Just like you would go to doctor when you would get a fever. You matter!
Health Tips
Feel free to reach me to book an appointment. I'm doing video and telephonic consultations . You can learn more about my approach at www.thehappyspace.in Take care dear.